Intellectual rampage

I’ve been brought up in an environment where seeing is believing,

And feeling is not seeing

the Truth.

Scrap That.

I Reject that notion of thought.

It was only recently that the world inherited an eye for reading, and writing,
the coded language of mystery.

The Social Construct of the mind.

I’m intellectually torn between literacy and illiteracy.

Am I smarter than illiterate people because I can do something they cant?

The complicated life is
the contemplative life.

Prior to inheriting knowledge, civilizations thrived on instinct and experience.

I love to read and write,

But I also love to feel and experience life.

Using all my senses
instead of just focusing on one.

My sight.

I see words, and interpret them in my mind.

I want to feel words and experience them through my mind.

I am a channel in this world,

The medium in the message

Stuck in a land of electronic sets and concentrated

orange juice…

There is no such thing as a good soul anymore, unless you have credentials.

Decolonize the mind, to reconstruct the nation…

Imperialism has served me in both good ways and bad…mostly for bad
because I am forgetting my past, and where I come from.

The inner circles of life, have transformed into blood lines, and squares…

directing life where to go instead of circling to infinity.

Stop me before I self destruct…

I’m trapped in a world of paper, both money and reading


Stopped by my idealistic utopia, of organizing disorder,

But achieving disorganized order, in the millennium clash of


It hurts, as an intellectual

I realize

that people who cannot see what I see, feel poverty.

Or is it I who feel poverty in what I see?

The real lies.

My vision is clouded,

Must unplug from the matrix, to put on

my real eyes

and bear witness to the revolution that is my mind.

The undeniable solution to solving life’s problems is

I realize

not possible.

To return the fruit back into the tree?

It cannot be undone. Forever tainted with sin…

Just let it be, and let the children run wild and free.

Because that is My flaw,

I want to return to Paradise while being alive!

You Only Live Twice.

“You Only Live Twice.  One Life for yourself, and one for your Dreams.”

In 2012, I was able to realize and live a dream I’ve had since childhood.  June 20, 2012, I was able to go to Japan.  This dream has been something I have wanted to do since I first grew a liking to anime, particular Dragon Ball Z.  Another reason this draw to Japan was so strong within me, was through my Karate training, and whole code of the Samurai, Bushido.   The trip to Japan was for play, but also some business exploring and training at the JKA headquarters.

During my journey preparing myself to set up this trip found relation to the term You Only Live Twice.

Coincidentally this is the time when the term YOLO was making airwaves in the minds of the generation.

You Only Live Twice is the movie in which James Bond had a mission in Japan, and basically the movie Austin Powers made the Dr. Evil, Project Vulcan etc. spoof off from (well technically it was a spoof of spy movies in general, but clearly James Bond is the pastiche).   The theme song by Nancy Sinatra, really struck me hearing her voice resonate the words of the theme song.

Thoughts streamlined my consciousness trying to make sense of what it would mean to live twice.

Based on the empirical knowledge of the universe through Human understanding, we have Life, then we have Death, in a linear order through the concept of time.

Technically One Life, before Death…

I got lost in my thoughts, and contemplated the meaning of One Life, and then Death.

Death comes at the end of Life, an end-point.  But does it mean that there is only one path that leads up to this endpoint?

I am thinking of a multitude of entry points and paths to reach this endpoint.  There are so much ways to Live Life until we die.  However in Life there is something I feel and believe in, Physical and Spiritual, Real world and Dream World, Corporeal and Ethereal, the Dualism, Dichotomy of the Universe’s “known” existence that is contained in Life.

Death is the unknown variable that is beyond the scope of this universe, though it could be a part of it…

The point of this expanded thought is Why I choose to understand You Only Live Twice.
When we are born, there are customs practices and roles that are naturally and socially constructed for us.  E.G Gender, born male or female, how this role impacts our lives, location, social situation, there are all these barriers that try to streamline our Lives already into a pre destined path and well, we all know the end point, death… but the Path to it?  There can be an infinite set of probabilities  to reach death based on choices…To Live twice to me means to not just bypass these choices, but rather make the choice-less action to just Live…

Choosing gives us 2 options though.

No choice, is Oneness, just action, no hesitation…

The way I interpret You Only Live Twice is through the universal Zen, Telos, Enso the eternal Return.

The flow of the Universe is Eternal,  We flow from the Life Stream of the Eternal to the Life stream of the Mortal…

So in a sense we Live Twice.  Death is potentially a bridge between the Eternal and this physical mortal realm… That I/We have no way of grasping or knowing yet…(to my limited scope of knowledge at least.

Building on this concept stemmed from my Karate, Bushido mentality of being Connected with Everything in the Universe… which stems my relation to the Japan trip, and the James Bond movie, which started this complicated contemplation to begin with.

What I Feel I know based off of my OWN personal Experience, my DŌ, so far is that I can choose to live one life, and be limited to the understanding of just living this physical realm straight until death.   Or I can open myself up, rather Empty myself into the void of the eternal, and Live Twice, eternally…  Death is just a checkpoint, but once I cross this checkpoint I have no idea if I will be able to remember things prior to the checkpoint, e.g. past lives… e.g reincarnation… e.g. Continuation…

Yes I have one physical life, my body may expire…Physical organs, mind, heart, limbs, they will expire….but will I LUIGI GARDE die when my body dies?  Do I Live based off of my material sensory experiences?  I Live My Way through contemplating this eternal realm (Nirvana? Heaven? Ether?…)  by Understanding it through the Physical…Living BOTH simultaneously but also individually, until my existence is either expired through Death, or what void I/We are not aware of…

You Only Live Twice…

To be Continued…

( I will be updating this post as I continue to understand things based off of my experiences)

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